Ryran keeps telling me that I have to write a book to explain what has changed in me over the past year. He talks to other political figures and business leaders who complain about going to functions alone because their spouses are very uncomfortable in social situations. I get it. People who are naturally social want to help their loved ones feel more comfortable around crowds.
I thought he might be on to something. I know I’ve changed a lot in a short period of time. I’m much more comfortable in social situations, sometimes too comfortable. I feel like I can speak my truth, even if others don’t agree or won’t like it.
The best part for me is that I sleep well knowing that I have shown up in the world as me. Whether people like me or not is their issue. I decided that I have to look in the mirror each morning and be comfortable with the fact that I am the same person in any situation. I am a congruent, whole, unique individual.
As much as I value my husband’s guidance, it really hit home when I was called into the Principal’s Office. Oh my! I never got in trouble in school, but sitting in that office used to make me very nervous, until about a year ago.
The Principal asked me outright about the changes in my personality. I thought about it for a few minutes and then I shared a couple of experiences that led up to the current version of Jessica.
My plan is to share those in more detail over the next few posts. Here is a very brief outline of what’s to come.
- I started using Holosync, binaural beats audio for an hour every morning.
- My OCU students told me that 50 is the best age to be. I decided not to wait until then.
- I watched all of my communication (internal and external) and looked for my hidden beliefs.
- I spent some time exploring my shadow aspects and the exiled parts of myself.
- I determined what my core values were and got rid of the beliefs that did not align with those values.
- I purposely changed the beliefs and behaviors that did not serve my ultimate life philosophy.
- I studied NLP and became a Super Psych Ninja.
- I decided that all people are just people, regardless of their position or title.
- I learned that being called Dr. Traylor does not erase the normal human insecurities and doubts that every person faces.
- I cut my hair.
If you’re dying to know more before I have a chance to write about these life lessons, feel free to contact me. Sharing my story helps me clarify the gaps.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I know there are plenty of other things you could be doing.
